Males...ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is porn considered cheating when that's all the affection in the house?? I'm married to a man that seems to prefer porn over me...should I consider this cheating?? It really bothers me and I've told him this so now he just tries harder to hide it. I know that he's still doing it. I've walked in on him first thing in the morning, he tries to cover it up but I still see it. He tries to hide the fact that he plays with himself, but I still see it. It bothers me but I still haven't figured out if it's justified. I have this problem of pushing people away and I sometimes think this irritation might be a way of doing that. I know that porn is popular with guys especially but I want some physical attention also. He's not real romantic and doesn't kiss me (other than pecks) unless he's been drinking and I ask him for it. When we do "get busy" it's in the middle of the night, he'll wake me up. I would love to have a romantic evening at home where the "love" starts in one room and by the time we get to the bedroom we are practically going at it already.

If you read this and have any ideas for me please let me know. I will keep posting.

Ugh!!!!

Okay, test or no test I need to vent. Why is it that when you ask certain people a question they have to argue with you?? Or more for that matter if they ask you a question or just voice a statement and you give them your opinion they argue with you. I have this everyday. My husband will make a statement about something and I will, my bad, give him a reason why what he said wouldn't be good. He will then proceed to argue the point with me as if it's going to make a difference. It's almost like he always has to be right and he believes I'm just talking out my ass. There will be times when he will ask for my opinion about something, like what to have for dinner as a simple example, and then argue why what I said is not a good choice...that he would prefer "this"...then why ask what I think. Alot of the discussions we get into, and his insistance that's he's right, stem from what he went through in high school. He was the geek/nerd of his high school...picked on by the jocks and everyone else. Any topics sports related he really shows his "hatred" of sports due to this reason. This seems to stem into everyother topic he may talk about. I'm sick of it but if I try to say something to him about it then I'm wrong and he does the argue stuff again.

Another thing...if I want to buy something he's always giving me reason not to or he'll just avoid going to get whatever it is, of course when I have my own money then I'll just go myself and get it...he also makes more money than I do. But if he wants to buy something then there is no "consultation" with me as to the purchase (mind you I have to consult him if I do something, anything, that might affect him).

Okay, I'm ranting here but this is the purpose of this blog. I need to get things off my chest and not sure where else to go. My friends have issues of their own.

Thank you (whoever) for listening.